Almost Gone, Still Here
How God Pulled Me Back From War, Heartbreak, and Suicide - Again and Again
Almost Gone, Still Here is the story of a man who should not be alive—and the God who kept dragging him back from the edge, again and again.
Why read this book?
Because this is more than a survival story—it’s a road map for people who are barely hanging on. Almost Gone, Still Here walks you through foster care, combat, prison, heartbreak, and suicidal despair without flinching, but it doesn’t leave you there. It shows, in plain language and real moments, how God kept cutting in when every exit looked like death. If you’ve ever wondered why you’re still here, or you love someone who’s close to the edge, this book gives you a brutally honest testimony that says, “You’re not finished yet—and you’re not alone.”
Synopsis
Almost gone more times than he can count, Timothy Terrell should not be here to tell this story. By every reasonable measure: combat, foster care, group homes, DYS, prison, and nights on the edge of suicide, his life should have ended years ago. Yet again and again, in places where hope should have died, God refused to let go.
Almost Gone, Still Here is a raw, unpolished memoir of survival, faith, trauma, and redemption. Terrell pulls back the curtain on the battles most people never see: the war that follows you home, the weight of survivor’s guilt, the wreckage of broken relationships, and the 3 a.m. conversations with a God you’re not even sure you trust anymore. This is not a neat church testimony. It is an honest look at what it means to keep waking up when life has shattered you over and over.
From childhood in the system to combat deployments and prison yards, Terrell writes from lived experience, not theory. He speaks directly to those who carry invisible wounds, veterans, former inmates, addicts, trauma survivors, and anyone who has been told they are “too damaged” or “too far gone.” Along the way, he shows how God met him in hospital rooms, cells, parking lots, and lonely highways, often when he least deserved it and least wanted it.
This book is for readers who:
Wonder why they’re still alive when so many others aren’t
Love someone who seems determined to self-destruct
Struggle with PTSD, moral injury, addiction, or crushing shame
Who are trying to reconcile faith with a life story that feels broken beyond repair
Almost Gone, Still Here offers no clichés or easy fixes. Instead, it offers brutal honesty, hard-won hope, and one stubborn message: you are not alone, you are not beyond saving, and if you are still here, your story is not over.
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About the Author
Timothy F. Terrell has lived more lives than most people cram into one lifetime. A U.S. Army veteran and former contractor who’s walked through foster care, combat zones, prison cells, divorce, and the long dark of suicidal despair, he writes with the grit of someone who has actually been there and the hope of a man who knows he wasn’t carried through it by accident. His books, spanning memoir, fiction, sci‑fi, poetry, and historical storytelling, are rooted in raw honesty, hard-won faith, and a stubborn belief that no one is too far gone for God to reach. When he’s not writing, Timothy speaks to churches, veterans’ groups, and communities about survival, second chances, and the kind of grace that shows up when every other door has slammed shut.
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