Almost gone more times than he can count, Timothy F. Terrell should not be here to tell this story. By every reasonable measure—combat, heartbreak, addiction, and nights on the edge of suicide—his life should have ended years ago. But it didn’t. And this book is the raw, unfiltered account of why.
In Almost Gone, Still Here, Terrell opens the door on the battles most people never see: the war that follows you home, the weight of survivor’s guilt, the quiet collapse of relationships, and the 3 a.m. conversations with a God you’re not even sure you believe in anymore. This isn’t a polished “I once was broken, now I’m fine” testimony. It’s a ground-level look at what it means to keep waking up when you’re certain the world would be better off without you—and to slowly discover that you were lied to.
Page by page, you’ll walk with a veteran who:
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Survived multiple suicide attempts and the shame that followed.
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Faced the fallout of war, trauma, and self-destruction in his body, mind, and relationships.
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Met God not in church aisles, but in hospital rooms, jail cells, parking lots, and long, messy nights of doubt and anger.
If you’ve ever:
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Wondered why you’re still here,
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Loved someone who seems determined to self-destruct, or
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Struggled to reconcile faith with pain,
this book is for you.
Almost Gone, Still Here is a lifeline for veterans, first responders, and anyone battling invisible wounds—but it’s just as powerful for spouses, parents, friends, and churches who don’t know how to help. It offers no cheap clichés or easy answers, only honest stories, hard-won hope, and the relentless truth that God is far more stubborn about saving us than we are about giving up.
If you—or someone you love—are standing on the edge, this book will remind you of one thing the darkness always tries to hide:
You are not alone.
You are not beyond saving.
You are still here for a reason.
Buy this book, read it, and then share it with the person you’re most afraid of losing.